tadi siang pas lagi nge-pel ada telpon
nyokap yang ngangkat
dari Lianess, Digital Studio
katanya nilai di sertifikatku ada yang salah

gua dah nebak
kayaknya yang nilai D deh
nilai animasi 2
ternyata bener hehehe....
nilainya benernya C
even better
ternyata nilai video and effect salah juga
benernya B tapi ditulis C

senangnya
abis tuh nilai D ganggu banget

Anything for you
Though you're not here
Since you said we're through
It seems like years
Time keeps draggin on and on
And forever's been and gone
Still I can't figure what went wrong

I'd still do anything for you
I'll play your game
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way
I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though you'll never see me cryin'
You know inside I feel like dying

And I'd do anything for you
In spite of it all
I've learned so much from you
You made me strong
But don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

I hope you find somone to please you
Somone who'll care and never leave you
But if that someone ever hurts you
You just might need a friend to turn to

And I'd do anything for you
I'll give you up
If that's what I should do To make you happy
I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though inside I feel like dying

You know you'll never see me crying
Don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

(Anything For You - Gloria Estefan)

hari ini janjian ma Bella mu nonton
rencana awal jemput dia di itb
dia mau revisi skripsi
ternyata ketemu dosen pembimbing diundur
jadinya besok

jemput di rumahnya jam 2an
nonton di bsm
nomat btw
nonton Over The Hedge yang jam 15.45
sambi nunggu kita puter2 bsm
beli makanan di giant

bis nonton OTH gua ngajakin nonton The Fast And The Furious Tokyo Drift
kali ini gua yang bayarin
dia mau aja he3...
ya udah
kita langsung beli tiket dan langsung masuk

dua2nya bagus filmnya
khusus TFATF Tokyo drift..
jauh lebih baik dibanding yang kedua
sama kayak yang pertama..
ceritanya lebih menarik lah

jadi memang gak cuman mikirin mobil2nya

mobil2nya kurang atraktif di Tokyo Drift

yang penting puas nontonnya n_n

setelah berusaha ngeyakinin kalo gak apa2
hari sabtu siang Yunita maen ke rumah
nge-print lamaran kerja ma attach cv
wajar sih kalo dia rada takut
sebelum ke rumah, kita makan baso rudal dulu n_n

sorenya sekeluarga dan keluarga2 temennya bonyok makan2
makan2 di suki garden the valley
makanan jepang all you can eat
cuman kataku lebih enak di Hanamasa deh...

bis makan kita ke rumah tante susan
rumahnya di dago pakar
dari depan rumah bisa ngeliat the valley
bis itu pada bubaran

minggu malem ke kawinannya sinta
diajak yunita ke gereja dulu
makan dulu di McD soalnya yunita belum makan dari siang
terus jemput lucy

disana ketemu temen2 lama
how fun !
Lisna, Frans, Koko, Liana, Vety, Paulus, Cahyo, dll
tuker2an nomer hp
ngobrol
bla bla bla bla
sampai waktunya harus pulang... T_T

In some case to forget about someone we need another someone
However we cannot lying to ourself that we still love that someone
Sometimes you force yourself to find someone else
Sometimes you say you're not love him/her anymore
That's an easy thing to do
But it leaves a deep pain afterwards
I still do that

Still dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
What an emotion they stir

The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall

My heart is crushed by a former love
Do you know what it feels like being alone?
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

Just as you thought your problems were gone
Just as you thought things were getting better

Carry me..
Bury me...

Standing here
Wasting my time
Watching those people

Try to hold it all inside
But just for tonight
I'll try with all my heart

On the top of the world
Sitting here wishing
Something is missing

What do i know
Seems that i have found nothing at all
Just myself here on the edge

I want to hear your voice out loud
But please slow it down
I'm choking on nothing

It's clear in my head
And I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

Sharp disaster and it's still fresh
Is it worth it when it is over
Is it really over?

Proving myself right
Proving she was right
I'd make the biggest noise

Should I lock my hands behind my head
Should I cover my heart and hit the deck
Or brace myself for the impact ?

It's a long wait for an answer
Is there anything worth waiting for?
Is there any word worth lying for?

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you
With every single word I said

Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
And you'd want to call me
And I would be there every time

you'd need me
I'd be there every time
But for now...
I'll look so longingly
Waiting...

For you to want me
for you to need me
for you to notice me

My shattered dreams And broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else

Now i sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do

But have one last cry
One last cry Before i leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind

This time
Stop living a lie
I guess i'm down to my last cry
Cry........

(a piece of Brian McNight's One Last Cry)

"Yunita dah kenal n deket ma co ini b4 kenal ma lo
bkn dia terlalu cepet punya cowok lagi,
cuman dulu Yunita terlalu cepet ngambil keputusan jadian ma lo"

Aku pikir aku tahu semuanya
Aku pikir dia mengatakan yang sebenarnya
I guess i was a mistake

Hari ini Yunita ultah
gak undang ke rumahnya makan2
yah ngerti sih kenapa
fyi sampai detik ini gua belum pernah ketemu ortu Yunita secara langsung

pagi ini ditelpon Audra
katanya ada hal penting yang pengen dia kasih tau
katanya sekalian ajak Rini ma Dahono
sayangnya Dahono gak bisa dateng
janjian di BSM jam 1

ternyata....
Audra sudah dilamar !
dia ma Kevin bakal married tahun depan
tanggal 7 bulan 7 tahun 2007

minggu depan Sinta married
Giri kemaren2 tunangan
waduh...
mana semua undangannya tertulis
"Gregorius Krishna & Yunita"
oh well...

Happy Birthday Yunita n_n

They say "If you love someone, let them go... "
They failed to mention that it would hurt like hell...

They say "That which does not kill you, makes you stronger... "
They didn't say anything about the pain... The scars...

They say "Love hurts... "
Well, yeah, but they didn't say that it would be this much...

I believe in unconditional love, that it should be given freely...
But sometimes I wonder...
Is it wrong to hope for something in return?
Is it wrong to hope for something more than friendship?
Is it wrong to believe that it's worth fighting for?

Is it wrong, when somebody says "I hope you find someone better than me." to answer "But you ARE the best." ?

Is it wrong, when somebody says "I'm not worth the trouble, the pain." to answer "But you are worth even MORE than that." ?

Is it wrong, when somebody says "Go on with your life." to answer "Sure... But I want YOU to be a part of it." ?

Is it wrong, when somebody says "I'm afraid it'll hurt you even more." to answer "So be it. That's a price I pay GLADLY." ?

I don't think I will ever be able to ask...
To demand...
But is it wrong, to HOPE?

When you love someone
And you love them with your heart,
It never disappears

When you are apart
And when you love someone you've done all you can do,
You set them free
And it that love was true

When you love someone
It will all come back to you

(yeahhh.. they never mention about the pain !!!!!!!!!)

today is June 17th

suppose to be our 7th
but there will be no anniversary for today
from today..

hari ini bokap belum sembuh juga
sakit panas dan kadang perut gak enak rasanya
malah kadang muntah
kemaren aku saranin ke klinik hari ini
taunya nggak

hari ini ngapain aja ya?
cuci mobil
manasin mobil
donlot, OL, dkk
mandiin my dogs
sempet telpon Yunita
dia lagi di multicom
dia hari ini mulai kerja
cuman hari ini dia rada got bored di kantor

hp nyokap kan rusak
dibenerin di Nokia IP
tapi gak bisa dibenerin
soalnya komputer nokianya lagi rusak
disaranin ke BEC ato gak Setiabudi

gua disuruh ambil ma bokap
jadinya ya udah sore aja sekalian jemput kakak
pas nelpon Yunita iseng aja ngajakin
jadinya tadi bertiga ke IP
ambil hp trus nyokap minta dibeliin J.Co
sebelum pulang makan snack di foodcourt
beli McD
fries, milo, coke, beefburger, chicken spicy burger

just another day....

The Quest

Since the day we broke apart
I search these lands and skies of cotton
Hoping that upon my arrival, you haven't forgotten
What it is I seek, with all my heart

Setelah berhari - hari minim tidur
akhirnya tugas graphic design selesai juga
tiap hari begadang but hey... i can't sleep anyway

gak semuanya aku buat
toh memang gak harus semua dibuat
tadi sore ngumpulin

tadi sekalian jemput kakak
sambil nunggu aku pesen baso
uenak n_n

baso gerobak biasa mangkal di gang deket kantor kakak
langganan kakakku juga
pesen campur.. 4000 ribu perak
beneran deh enak!
kayaknya kalo nunggu kakak gua bakal pesen baso deh
huahuahahahaha.......

ok...
rencana jangka pendek
buat cv baik digital maupun non digital
rencana jangka pendek agak jauh ya kirim2 lamaran dunk
rencana jangka pendek yang jauhnya ya kerja

pengen belajar actionscript flash nih
musti rajin ngulik juga

n_n

Do It For Me Now - Angels And Airwaves

I'm frightened tonight and the wind has a roar
It seeps through the hall and from under the door
like the shit that was said could take it that well

I give and I give and I give and I give and I'm still
Lost in heart and bumped in from the love that's been starved
I know I've got close but I'm sure it's too far
from the point of suspence we know it should be

the end of the part of my favorite movie
Where the guy grabs the girl and gives her his hand
and says take me away from this tourturous land
cause the grave is set up, The hole that I dug

I gave and I gave and I gave and I gave you my trust
everytime that we kissed and you gave me a lie
To add to the scene you pretended to cry
But I'm here and I'm cool the way that it is
Just give me a chance and I'll try to forgive

And I don't know, and I can't guess if we're gonna be ok
But now, my last wish is that you'll do this with me
kiss me here and hold my hand
let me feel like I'm the only one
I know you can, won't you do it for me now?

I've really had it with the rain and the tears
the predictable storm that has come every year
and it speaks and for sure with the bat in it's hand

I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I can't
You're a theif and a witch but I love you to death
You steal my heart and curse under your breath
but the one thing that I can most willingly prove
that when you are gone I'll be fine without you

And I don't know, and I can't guess if we're gonna be ok
But now, my last wish is that you'll do this with me
kiss me here and hold my hand
let me feel like I'm the only one
I know you can, won't you do it for me now?

Now just hold on, hold on to me

You And Me - Lifehouse

What day is it And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothin to prove
and It's you and me and all of the people
and I don't why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

capek banget nih
mata rasanya dah minta ditutup

baru dari lamarannya Giri ma Puji
acaranya di The Kartipah Dago
makanannya enak2 n_n

anak2 ilmu komputer beberapa diundang
yah kita2 ini hehehe...

kebanyakan kalo gak di bandung ya pada gawe di jakarta
btw tempatnya bagus
ada poolnya juga

acaranya jam 18.30
nyampe disana langsung ke daerah kolam renang
pada ngumpul disana sih anak2
seneng rasanya ketemu temen2
aat bawa ceweknya
tadi pertama kali ketemu Yully
Indi ceweknya Joezer sih dah pernah ketemu

tadi pulangnya rada telat
sengaja sih
gua, Aat, Yully, ma Guntur ngobrol2 bentar di Gazebo sambil ngerokok dan minum
ngomongin segala macem
dari yang penting ampe gak penting n_n
pulang dari sana sekitar jam 10

besok hari penting nih
penting soalnya harus buat tugas graphic design
senen deadline...

udah dulu ya
sampai besok
n_n

It's like yesterday I didn't even know your name
Now today You're always on my mind
I never could have predicted that I feel this way
You are beautiful surprise

Intoxicated every time I hear your voice
You've got me on a natural high
It's almost like I didn't even have a choice
You are a beautiful surprise

Whatever it is you came to teach me
I am here to learn it cause I believe that we are written in the stars
I don't know what the future holds But I'm living in the moment
And I'm thankful for the man that you are, you are, you are

You are everything I ask for in my prayers
So I know my angels brought you to my life
Your energy is healing to my soul
You are a beautiful surprise

You are an inspiration to my life
You are the reason why I smile
You are a beautiful surprise

(India Arie - Beautiful Surprise)

lagu ini extremely ngingetin gua
inget di mobil dia kayak karaoke
seolah2 dia nyanyi lagu ini buat gua
sambil make gerakan tangan...
oh my God...!
...
..
T_T

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...

(Damian Rice - Blower's Daughters)

kemaren lusa internet gak bisa dipake
telpon ke Quasar
taunya belum bayar tagihan hehehe...

semalem gak bisa tidur
jantung berdebar
mikirin Yunita
yah apa mau dikata..
sekarang juga masih mikirin

besok Giri tunangan
acaranya di Dago
nama tempatnya lupa
undangannya buat dua orang.. damn

rabu sebelum ke digital studio mampir ke BEC
liat2 printer ma flash disc
FD 1 giga paling murah 265ribu merk Kingston
Canon IP1000 dah gak ada lagi
yang banyak sekarang yang IP1200
berapa ya harganya.. 365ribu kalo gak salah

oya gua dah bilang belum kalo gua sekarang punya scanner
dapet dari citibank
make point reward

selesai DS jemput kakak
ke rumah temennya dulu ambil duit
malemnya bonyok pulang dari jawa
bawa banyak oleh2
crita2 soal jogja paska gempa

kamis seharian di rumah aja
sorenya ke ciwalk
janjian ketemuan ma Kristopher
ngambil undangan tunangan Giri
makan terus cabut ke rumah Joezer

every place reminds me of her..
temen2 sih bilang cari perhatian laen dll
tapi gimana ya...
tau2 jadi keinget tuh..

kemaren di telpon Vincent
katanya di GlobalTV lagi ada lowongan graphic design
di Maranatha juga ada pengumuman lowongan
mungkin minggu depan kalo gak besok sabtu kesana
sabtu kemaren juga ada lowongan animator di PR
yah thanks to Vincent atas info2nya

back to her..
what do you guys think?

Brandy - Have You Ever

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It make you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can’t sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don’t come out right
Have you ever
Have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You’d do anything to make them understand
Have you have had someone steal your heart away
You’d give anything to make them fell the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don’t know what to say
And you don’t know where to start

Have you ever loved someone so much
It’s make you wanna cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can’t sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don’t come out right
Have you ever
Have you ever

Have you ever found the one
You’ve dreamed of all your life
You’d do anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you’ve given your heart to
Only to find that one won’t give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get to you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world ’coz baby I can’t sleep

sabtu bangun pagi terus cuci mobil
selesai nyuci ada sms dari Yunita
ngajak keluar
karna gak ada rencana keluar ya aku ikutan aja

sambil makan aku tungguin balesan tapi gak dateng2 juga
akhirnya aku sms lagi
ternyata yang laen pada gak bisa
ya sudah
gak jadi keluar

siangnya kakak nelpon
dia abis potong rambut
ngajak nonton ma anak2 mudika
hell yess...

Vincent, Trixie, Andre, Rieke pada mau nonton X-Men 3
Riska ma Marina dah nonton
jadi mereka cuman jalan2 aja di ciwalk
di jalan kena macet.. damn

sampe di ciwalk tiketnya dah abis
berhubung Andre dah beli tiket lebih dulu jadinya mereka nonton
gua, kakak, Riska, Ma Marina jadinya jalan2 keliling ciwalk

abis Riska cari baju
terus kita ngadem di Embargo
gua pesen Heineken
pesen kue coklat makan berempat n_n

selesai mereka nonton
kita semua makan di avenue
3 XL pizza makan dan ngobrol
sempet ujan tapi gak lama
ketemu temen
Aris, Laxmy, Joezer

malemnya di rumah ada sms dari Tissa
dia minggu mau ke bandung
ngajak ketemuan di Ciwalk !
ya udah deh ke ciwalk lagi

berangkatnya nganter kakak ma mba Sisil ke Kings
kena macet di asia afrika
baru tau hari ini kalo kemaren macet gara2 ada megawati

Gua, Tissa, Sheilla, Yoren, Diana, Kusnadi
Gua, Tissa, ma Sheilla dateng duluan
sambil nunggu pesen minum di foodcourt
bis pada dateng kita makan di platinum
makan dan ngobrol

seneng sih bisa ngumpul lagi
walau gak bisa lengkap
it's been a while

menjelang sore kita bubar
sheilla ma Yoren ada perlu
kebetulan Tissa accidently ketemu temen laen

gila
keluar parkiran Ciwalk aja macetnya minta ampun
ada kali tuh 30 menit
cabut ke Kings
jemput kakak lagi
ampe rumah capek banget

yah weekend yang menyenagkan
ma anak2 mudika & ma sobat2 sama2 dah lama gak ngumpul dan maen keluar

oya
hari sabtu Vincent sms
katanya adala lowongan kerja animator 2D ma 3D
dah minjem korannya
dah gua catet
mu lamar2 aaah...

kelas grphic design juga dah tugas akhir nih
wish me luck

n_n

semalem mimpi
mimpi sepupuku Mba Arni nikah
aslinya emang dah nikah
dah punya baby

anyway
di acara nikah itu temen2ku pada dateng juga
(kok bisa ya, yah namanya mimpi)
and you know what?
yunita dateng juga ma cowok
gak jelas siapa
terus di mimpi aku nangis

Valkyrie Missile - Angels and Airwaves

Everyone, everyone will listen even if it hurts sometimes
If you will come and hear the message
Everyone wants to learn to love again
Open up and come alive
And you will, can you hear my message?

Leave your pain on the bedroom floor again
Bring a smile to survive
And do you think that you have that in you?
If you're here and you're all alone tonight
I'll give you a free ride

Take a chance cause I know you want to
If only you'll hold on just hold on
I'm here and I'm with you I'm here too
I feel you will get through
I know this I've seen it hundred times a thousand times
just one more time with you and I
I'll pull you close and then we'll say goodbye

I've got alot oh a whole hell of alot to say even if it hurts sometimes
And if you will come and hear the message
And everyone, everyone will hope and pray
That the best is sure to survive

And if it's true then you'll hear the message
A perfect life what a perfect brandnew day
And we're the next in line
And do you think that you have in it you?
So if you're here and you carry us tonight then I'll give you a free ride

Take a chance cause I know you want to
If only you'll hold on just hold on
I'm here and I'm with you I'm here too
I feel you will get throughI know this
I've seen it hundred times a thousand times
just one more time with you and I
I'll pull you close and then we'll say goodbye

hari ini rencananya mau di rumah aja
taunya mba ika telpon
mouse di kantornya ngadat
diminta kesana deh bawa mouse nganggur di rumah

pulangnya sekalian potong rambut
potong semuanya alias botak
tinggal sisa dikit n_n
yah pangen jadi orang yang lebih baik
secara simbolis di botak deh rambut gue...

terus Syu sms
nanya plasa flexi
dia baru beli hp cdma berikut kartu
mau di inject
aku bilang aku punya nomer flexi...
dia langsung pengen liat

dia mau ke unpar tapi gua ogah kalo ke unpar
parkirnya itu ....
jadinya ke ciwalk aja

trus yunita telp
nanya dvd player
dia ternyata lagi di jalan mau ke bec ma lucy
tapi terus sms gak bisa
aku tlp jadinya suruh nyusul ke bec

nah itu dia gua salah tangkep ip ma bec
jadinya rada2 kacau
gua nunggu di bec padahal seharusnya nunggu di ip
gua sendiri neranginnya bingung
n_n

makan siang bertiga di kfc
terus ngater mereka pulang
sekalian jemput mba ika

ps: i'm okay now