Ayo tebak lagu siapa !

Sometimes I wonder
How I'd ever make it through,
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue

'Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world's closing in on me,
And there's no way of breaking free
And then I see you reach for me

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you, baby
And everything's alright,
everything's alright

When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile
Oh yeah, baby when I see you smile at me

Baby there's nothing in this world
that could ever do
What a touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew

And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it,
'cause you're here with me now
And one look at you baby
Is all I'll ever need,
you're all I'll ever need

Chorus

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you baby
And everything's alright,
everything's alright

So right...

The Used - I Caught Fire

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...

Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin

(I'm melting, I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting in your eyes
Like my first time that I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me Now

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting in your eyes
Like my first time that I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me (Stay with me lay with me now)

You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
Just stay with me now

We could take our heads off
stay in bed and just make love that's all
Just stay with me now

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting in your eyes
Like my first time that I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me

In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting in your eyes
Like my first time that I caught fire
Just stay with me lay with me (Stay with me, lay with me)

In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes (I'm melting in your eyes)
In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes

Oct

Limewire emang surganya download maniak, sayang masih dial-up, nih beberapa MP3 yang gua download 2-3 hari terakhir sejak gua install LimeWire. Sssstt….benernya gua gak tau nih mau nulis apa di blog he5….

- Alkaline Trio – Emma (acoustic)
- Bad English – When I See You Smile
- Finch – Letters To You (acoustic)
- Finch – What it Is To Burn (acoustic)
- Incubus – I Miss You (acoustic)
- Jamie Cullum – High & Dry (Radiohead cover, must have!)
- Ratu – Teman Tapi Mesra (Ratu ??!!!!! he5… guilty pleasure)
- Ratu – Salahkan Aku Terlalu Mencintaimu (idem atas ^_^)

A - Better Off With Him

Gua dapet lagu ini dari Deni, dapet mpg-nya, gua sendiri suka ma A (nama band yang aneh ya?). Lagunya enak banget cuman liriknya nusuk banget ^_^ awalnya gua gak mau dengerin nih lagu tapi luluh juga, abis enak sih lagunya, akhirnya gua bikin MP3-nya. liat aja sisi baiknya, nih lagu bisa "ngeracunin" pikiran gua untuk kembali ke jalan yang benar he5.... mungkin dengan dipaksain denger nih lagu gua bisa ngerelain Dia...

Run around, What's the frequency you're on?
Get around, That's addiction you'll get some.
Heart attack, Not as big as the next one.
Pulling back, Things look different when you're young.

Can't find a, good reason.
Can't fight this way i'm feeling.
These jealous, teenagers,
That laugh at my behaviour.

You'd be better off without me,
Hate to see you sorry,
Days are closing in,
You're better off with him.

Its boring but i'm making,
Promises i'm breaking,
Days are growing thin,
You're better off with

Anyone, Makes no difference just pick one.
Get around, What's the frequency you're on.

You're scared around, Conversations you're never wrong.
You're better off, New relations,
You're better off, You're better off,
You'd be better off without me,
Hate to see you sorry,
Days are closing in,
You're better off with him.

Its boring but i'm making, Promises i'm breaking,
Days are growing thin, You're better off with

I can't take it anymore,
I can't concentrate.

You run around, In my brain,
yeah you run around

You're not having fun no more,
There's a thousand ways.

You get around, In my brain,
yeah you get around.

Run around, what's the frequency you're on?
Get around, what's the frequency you're on?

You'd be better off without me,
Hate to see you sorry,
Days are closing in,
You're better off with him.

Its boring but i'm making,
Promises i'm breaking,
Days are growing thin,
You're better off with,
You'd be better off without me,
Hate to see you sorry,
Days are closing in,
You're better off with him.

Its boring but i'm making,
Promises i'm breaking,
Days are growing thin,
You're better off..
You're better off..
You're better off with him...

What I Feel

Sambil dengerin Bad English - When I See You Smile, kemaren download make LimeWire, baru install kemaren malem, kayak anak kecil di toko permen, banyak banget yang pengen didownload ampe lupa apa aja yang pengen didownload ^_^

Tadi pagi ke Sekeloa mau cabut gigi (tenang Dit, bukan ma Lia kok), janji ma Bene cuman dia gak bisa, jadinya ama temennya Adisty, she's cute ^_^
prosedurnya banyak banget, cek tekanan darah, ditanya ini itu. In the end gua gak dicabut giginya, gua pernah kena kanker soalnya, sial ! Disuruh ke RSHS, males T_T
Minggu depan janjian skeling aja deh, cabut gigi kapan2 aja he5.... kecewa juga sih... lucu juga gua dirayu-rayu ma temen2nya Bene ma Dendeng, diminta jadi pasiennya ^_^

males pulang, jadinya maen di Sekeloa dulu, untung ada Dendeng, panggilannya dendeng tapi nama aslinya Steven ! Lumayanlah ngobrolin macem2 termasuk masa sma di Angela, lumayan juga liat2 mahasiswi FKG he3.... cakep2 juga hi5... tapi Dendeng jam berapa ya tadi mesti absen, mesti masuk ke (katakanlah) kelas.

Ya udah lah, gua trus makan, di ciwalk. Abis makan gua bawaannya sedih, gak mikirin sesuatu tapi more like pikiran gua blank. gua pikir gua mestinya feeling happy tapi kok malah ngerasa sedih ya ? gak tau lah, di mobil otw home rasanya kosong, just drive, no emotion at all, sekarang pun masih. Reality bites but it's okay, it's a good therapy for me. Plus badan kok kayaknya anget ya ?

Ntar malem ada doa novena di rumah, ....artinya gua bakal di atas sepanjang doa entah maen komputer kalo gak tiduran di kamar kakak gua. Ironis, nyokap gua aktif dan relijius sedangkan gua yang kebalikannya

Gone

Semalem seperti biasa pengen denger Rock The Night di Hard Rock FM tapi malah kaget yang gua dapet, ternyata relay dari jakarta. gua tanya T-Rex dan dia bilang special programs dah gak ada lagi, TIDAAAAK !

Jelas gua kecewa, gua selalu dengerin RTN. Gua suka kirim usulan topik dan 2 kali usulan topik gua dipake, gua suka minjemin cd gua buat dicopy, seneng banget kalo denger lagu yang diputer tuh dapetnya dari gua. Mungkin karena semua itu gua pernah dianugerahi hardrocker yang paling nge-rock di ultah HRFM yang ke-2 he5.......

hmm..... sekarang gak tau deh mau dengerin apa, terlanjur suka Hard Rock. Sekarang yang gak relay cuman GMHR ama Drive & Jive.....

anyway, gua baru dapet MP3 AHA - Velvet, gua suka banget nih lagu, enak banget, relaxing. Tau nih lagu dah lama cuman gak tau siapa yang nyanyi ma judulnya, tadi pas lagi dengerin Hard Rock diputer dan Thank God penyiarnya nyebut penyanyi ma judulnya ^_^

here's the lyric...

Her skin is like velvet
Her face cut from stone
Her eyes when she's smiling
Will never reach home
But hear how she sings

Her touch would be tender
Her lips would be warm
But when we're together
I'm always alone
But hear how she sings
But hear how she sings
Hear how she sings

Her skin is like velvet
So I went to her home
Her place like a palace
With things you can't own
Her skin is like velvet
And hear how she sings
Hear how she sings...

Dreams

Only in dreams
We see what it means
Reach out our hands
Hold on to hers
But When we wake
It's all been erased
And so it seems
Only in Dreams

Pergi Pulang Part Two

pagi jam 6++ berangkat ke jakarta, di jalan bokap yang nyetir. gua ? tidur ! seneng banget soalnya bebas macet, masih pagi mungkin, nyampe rumah sodara di daerah jatiwaringin (kompleks kelapa sawit atau apa gitu namanya ???) jam 8an. acara lamarannya jam 10, jadi punya waktu nyantai. makan sambil nonton tv ^_^

Bis ngumpul semua, kita berangkat ke rumah Virgie (calon istri Mas Ade), rumahnya di bekasi barat, kompleks lupa he3... deket mesjid gede yang keliatan dari tol jkt-cikampek. dia punya 2 anjing lucu, yang satu putih, ngingetin Britney Spears di video One More Time (huh???). yang satu item kecil, masih kecil, ngegemesin. dua2nya anjing trah, yang putih gak tau apa jenisnya, yang item anjing sosis (yang badannya panjang tapi kakinya pendek), badannya kayak sosis mangkanya gua sebut anjing sosis he5...

makanannya enak2 loh ! he5... orang manado ! gua gak tau nama2nya tapi nyokap gua biasa bikin juga. pokoknya semua makanannya enak2 ^_^

selesai acara pulang lewat kalimalang, macet ! balik arah deh, lewat tol ajah... nyampe di rumah angie gua makan trus tidur, capek. tau2 dibangunin, time to go home, i'm driving. pengennya sih nginep, toh besok bonyok ke jakarta lagi cuman kakak gua besok mesti kerja, jadi terpaksa pulang

Fuck You Fuckin' Terrorists

rencana ke jakarta hari ini batal, jadinya besok pagi subuh. kenapa gak jadi ? Nyokap gua baru balik jadi sragen ke pemakaman Eyang gua, jadi perlu istirahat. benernya sih bisa aja gak usah pulang dulu, jadi langsung ke jakarta tapi nyokap takut gak bisa istirahat disana.

Nyokap ada cerita unik nih, yang ke Sragen kan satu mobil jenasah ama satu bus kecil, di bus ini sepupu gua yang masih kecil banget.. Odel teriak2 manggil "Eyang". dipikir ngomong "tiang" (tiang listrik).
tapi trus ditanya, "manggil siapa?".
dia jawab, "Eyang"
ditanya lagi, "Eyang ? mana Eyangnya?"
dia jawab, "itu lagi duduk"
langsung yang di dalem bus pada diem ^_^
anak kecil emang bisa ngeliat yang orang dewasa dah gak bisa liat lagi

maunya hari ini gua mau makan di Wale ma Rini, Audra, en Kevin. gua jemput Rini, Kevin jemput Audra terus ketemuan. cuman Kevin telat banget jemput Audra, jadinya gua ma Rini aja yang makan di Wale. trus janjian ma Audra-Kevin di BSM. tapi dasar sial, Audra jadinya ke Ciwalk dan smsnya gak nyampe ke gua, so kita batal ketemu. lucu juga sih, Saling mencari padahal kita beda lokasi ^_^

udah dulu ya, mau bobo, besok berangkat pagi, G'Nite

Just

Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.

This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die.

I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.

What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.

Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?

And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts.

My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.

Love is not like anything.
Especially a fucking knife.


//selamat untuk Joezer yang hari ini diwisuda//

Pergi Pulang

rebo malem diajak Mitha ke Siera, Gina sodaranya pengen nonton Gail, Gail ini vokalisnya Nuno (Yovie & Nuno), he's the asian guy. Gina ini nge-fans ma Gail (groupis ?), minta ditemenin nonton. gua sih gada ruginya, jadi gua mau2 aja.

tempat kos mereka ada di Dago Asri, dulunya Istana Dago, sebelah Alpina banget. mereka kost sekamar berdua. sebulan 1 juta tapi double bed, ada dapur plus kompor gas, kulkas, kamar mandi dalem, gak usah mikirin listrik, well... kata gua sih murah tuh apalagi dibagi berdua, menurut kamu ?

Gina nih fanatik pink banget, masuk ke kamar tuh yang keliatan banget. semuanya pink.. tempat tidur, bantal, guling, banyak boneka babi pink ^_^ bajunya pun make pink...
Gail di Siera nyanyi sendiri make gitar akustik, gua sempet minta Steven Bishop - It Might Be You ^_^ kita dengerin Gail sambil makan.. apa kebalikannya ya ^_^ akhirnya kita nongkrong2 aja ampe Gail selesai, trus Gina minta foto bareng... (groupis?)

tapi ada kabar sedih nih, malem itu gua ditelpon Deta sepupu gua, dia nelpon sambil nangis, wah ada yang gak beres nih...! bener, Eyang gua meninggal, Eyang Mulyadi, gua sih manggilnya Eyang Gintung soalnya rumahnya di Gintung (lebak bulus lurus terus ke arah tangerang). Eyang Mul tuh kakaknya ibunya nyokap.

tadi pagi kita sekeluarga ke jakarta, di jalan gua tidur, malem sebelumnya pulang jam 12an, masih ngantuk he3.... bete juga tuh, dari pondok gede ampe RS Carolus (salemba) macet! dari rumah jam 7 nyampe sana jam 12an, misa arwahnya dah dimulai. tadi jam 2 jenasahnya dibawa ke Sragen, nyokap doang yang kesana. abis itu gua balik lagi ke bandung...

di rumah duka rada serem, bukan hantu atau apa, keluarga gua kan guede banget, jadi tuh banyak yang nyapa gua dan gua lupa mereka siapa malah gua gak tau siapa mereka sama sekali..... OUCH...>.< sedangkan mereka yang nyapa gua "eh Krishna ya.. udah gede ya sekarang..." oh well.... anyway... lumayan tadi ketemu om tante sepupu... Sari, Deta, Ais, Tiwi, Dede, Beng2, Odel, dll... happy meeting them ^_^

sempet sebelum pulang gua liat ada mahasiswa kepalanya berdarah, bener2 darah ngalir, gua tanya tukang parkir katanya tuh mahasiswa lagi demo trus kena pentungan pak pulisi...

note :
Pasteur - Pondok Gede : Rp 29.500
tol kota : Rp 4.500

^_^

He Believes In Jesus

let me tell you something about my favourite parkingman / parking officer (or anything you like to say), he's working area is at baso rudal.
why he's my fave ? because he's so friendly, he always accosts and smile, his face is... how to describe it? friendly kind of face, and he always says thanx !
he has a lot of tattoos all over his body and today i found something interesting, on his right hand there's a tattoo of Jesus, Jesus with the Crown of thorn...

he believes in in Jesus so why can't i ?
eventhough he's poor but i bet he's more happy than me (or is it "happier"?)
the world is an interesting place indeed

Reply to #2

Gua tadinya mau Comment aja, tapi panjang banget, sekalian aja gua bikin entry. Lagian gua lagi di kondisi bimbang juga sih.

Gua ngerti banget dan gua setuju. Is it wrong to hope?

Gua lagi di Brisbane, tinggal sama temen dari temennya Dita. Cewek. Tadi gua nguping dia cerita ke temennya, kemaren ada co telepon dia maksa2 minta ngobrol dan abis itu bilang "Gua seneng banget ngobrol sama lu...lu itu cantik banget"

Ya jelas bikin temen gua ini serem.

Terus ya gua mikir: "Kita bukan kayak gitu"

Gua juga udah pikir, gua nggak boleh maksain fantasi gua ke Mari. Di pesawat terbang gua mikir: Kenapa gua maksain impian dia jadi cewek gua?

Sementara impian dia jadi temen baik gua lewat online, gua jadi sempai-nya, jauh lebih nyata dan lebih indah.

Gua baru beres nonton Chobits. "The Only One For Me" buat Chii (si Chobits) itu bener2 "The Only One For Me", kalo crash, kalo gagal, kalo kecewa, berarti bukan "The Only One For Me". Kita sebagai cowok single harus percaya demikian, kita nggak boleh jahat ke si cewek (dengan jadi stalker) dan jahat ke diri kita sendiri (ini gua sengaja tinggalin pada persepsi pribadi maksudnya jahat ke diri sendiri).

Apalagi setelah tadi gua kenalan sama dua anak jebolan Pelita Harapan. PERCIS kelakuan dua2nya sama si Ratu Aneh.

Rupanya memang satu pabrikan. Memang ga salah gua dulu jatuh hati ke dia. Itulah bagian langkah hidup dan pilihan yg gua ambil.

Udah segini deh, gimanapun mesti inget ini pake Internetnya orang hehehe.

Part Two

They say "If you love someone, let them go... "
They failed to mention that it would hurt like hell...

They say "That which does not kill you, makes you stronger... "
They didn't say anything about the pain... The scars...

They say "Love hurts... "
Well, yeah but they didn't say that it would be this much...

I believe in unconditional love,that it should be given freely...
But sometimes I wonder...

Is it wrong to hope for something in return?

Is it wrong to hope for something more than friendship?

Is it wrong to believe that it's worth fighting for?

Is it wrong, when somebody says "I hope you find someone better than me." to answer "But you ARE the best." ?

Is it wrong, when somebody says "I'm not worth the trouble, the pain." to answer "But you are worth even MORE than that." ?

Is it wrong, when somebody says "Go on with your life." to answer "Sure... But I want YOU to be a part of it." ?

Is it wrong, when somebody says "I'm afraid it'll hurt you even more." to answer "So be it. That's a price I pay GLADLY." ?

I don't think I will ever be able to ask... To demand...
But is it wrong, to HOPE?

more mp3s

Dubbed some MPGs, convert to MP3 from WAV, put it on my playlist

A – Better Off With Him
A – I Love Lake Tahoe
Black Eyed Peas – Don’t Lie
Bloodhound Gang – FoxtrotUniform Charlie Kilo
DAI – Shinjitsu No Uta
DAI – Under The Sun
Foo Fighters – DOA
Fuji Fumiya - True Love (OST Ordinary People)
Goldfinger – 99 Red Balloons (live)
Incubus – Megalomaniac (live)
Jason Mraz – You And I (live)
Pacifier – Bullitproof
Saves The Day – Shoulder To The Wheel
Stereophonic – A Thousand Trees (live)
Stereophonic – Local Boy In The Photograph (live)
The Explotion – No Revolution

just unimportant writings

taukan anda bahwa kebahagiaan itu mahal harganya?
dengan materi sebanyak apapun anda tak akan sanggup membelinya....

apakah saya bahagia?
ya....
tidak...
mungkin....
mungkin juga tidak...

pengamen kecil di jalanan mungkin lebih bahagia dari saya.
kalau saya bisa membeli senyum dan tawanya selama seminggu, akan saya beli.
atau sepasang orang pacaran di jembatan klender, mereka tampaknya bahagia,
kalaau bisa saya pinjam perasaan itu, akan saya pinjam dan tidak akan saya kembalikan.

hari ini tangis saya yang kesekian kalinya karena meratapi kebahagiaan.
entah beberapa tetes yang jatuh,
mungkin bisa dijadikan telaga kalau di akumulasikan dengan berpuluh-puluh air mata yang lalu.

kata orang, kalau punya seseorang yang istimewa di hati untuk anda berbagi tentang segala apapun, kamu akan bahagia.
saya punya...
saya tidak merasa bahagia...

saya ingim muka yang penuh cahaya seperti orang yang jatuh cinta memandang pasangannya. saya tidak pernah punya muka itu...

saya ingin merasa cantik ketika orang yang jatuh cinta dipuji oleh pasangannya.
saya dipuji, tapi tidak merasa cantik...

saya ingin senyum milik orang yang jatuh cinta ketika mereka berkomunikasi dengan pasangannya.
lagi2 hanya air mata yang saya punya...

saya ingin insting orang yang jatuh cinta dengan pasangannya tentang hal2 yang mereka lakukan.

saya punya doa... dan barharap itu terdengar..
saya punya orang yang saya sayang, tapi menurut dia saya tidak pengertian...

tentang air mata ini, sayapun muak...
kalau saja bisa saya hilangkan perasaan sayang saya padanya, sudah saya lakukan dari dulu.. karena apapun yang saya lakukan, saya tetap tidak bisa mengerti, tetap tidak bisa memberi....

Nyala

Tadinya gua mau posting Dewa - Cemburu, tapi ya yang lebih optimis lah, toh buat gua juga.

Greg: eeeuh....Joezer udah 1-2 minggu kali pacarannya ^^;.

Nyala
Lirik oleh Pure Saturday dan Suar

percayalah, terang akan datang/di saat yang tidak terduga/dan malaikat di atas bumi tersenyum lepas/kupercaya pada semua, saatnya akan tiba/dan pada waktunya, semua akan beterbangan/hembusan angin disana/dinginkan rasa kecewa/dimanakah kita kan berpijak/dan terus melangkah ke depan/tanpa ada ingatan lama terbawa kembali

Ya gua pikir itulah yang udah dialami Joezer.

Part One

Saturday september 24th two thousand and five

Last night I opened again my mp3 collection and I found a cool beatles’ song, “lucy in the sky with diamonds”. I have heard that song before someplace…
i also finished reading a book by kahlil gibran
almost two months for a book that thin
well, it's a progress for someone who doesn't like reading ^_^

Anyway
This morning I went to boromeus hospital to check my eyes
Result :
left eye -0.25
right eye -0.50 cyl
you can call me “four eye” next week

in the daylight I went to bip with my family
nothing really change….
Just hyperpoint and few adjustments because of it
Had lunch at nyonya rumah

I have a lot of friends but I don’t hear from them
By the way… Joezer has a girlfriend now..
@!#$?%^&*
so just me and myself went to bsm
seeing music albums and books
and then I saw her there…
with her boyfriend
WTF?!
Definetly not my day T_T

Got out of there in seconds
Walked straight to my car
Played Rage Againts The Machine
Played it loud.. very loud…
And went home

Happy Birthday Bella ^_^

Radiohead - Thinking About You - Pablo Honey

Been thinking about you, your record's a hit
Your eyes are on my wall, your teeth are over there
But I'm still no-one, and you're not a star
What do you care?

Been thinking about you, and there's no rest
Shit, I still love you, still see you in bed
But I'm playing with myself, and what do you care
When the other men are far, far better

All the things you got
But you never need
Who bought you cigarettes and bribed the company
To come and see you, honey

I've been thinking about you, so how can you sleep
These people aren't your friends, they're paid to kiss your feet
But they don't know what I know, and why should you care
When I'm not there

Been thinking about you, and there's no rest
Shit, I still love you, still see you in bed
But I'm playing with myself, and what do you care
When the other men are far, far better

All the things you got
But you never need
All the things you got
I'm planning to please you, please you

Been thinking about you...

My English Is Very Bad

went to Borma Setiabudi
as usual..
bought some cds and dvds

next destination Digital Studio
asking information about the extension class
kinda confuse...
graphic design ?
web design ?
3D animation ?
web and animation has already started
i have to wait until january for those two
graphic is going to be started in november

next stop BSM
planning to go OL but Samsung Netcenter is appearently under construction
so i walked to gramedia to see books
computer books and mags
i saw novel (i think it was)
about samurai
katana on it's red cover
i always interested about Japan

i bought a book a year ago
when i was in Jogjakarta for holiday
the bookstore was full with half-priced book
it's Japan Story Of A Nation
but i only read it for several chapter and then i just leave it ^_^
maybe i'll read it again.. i should

ow yeah...
if you're wondering what kind of jazz that i like..
you should check Dayberries
BSM ground floor
that cafe play my kind of jazz

hungry...
ate at Baso Rudal
and then went to Aquarius Dago
just checking as usual

ow my gosh..!
there it was..... Transplants !
the album that i thought they never gonna sell it here
btw...
Transplants is the side project of Travis Barker (blink182) and Tim Armstrong (Rancid)

bought it and three other more..
Naif : The Best
Ayumi Hamasaki : The Ballads
Utada Hikaru : Single Colections

almost 5..
picked up my sister
her boss has a dog
a huge golden retriever named ace
trust me... Ace is so big
and i play with him for a while

went home ?
no, not yet
next... BEC
my sister wanted to buy Hore
walking around seeing webcam and headset
hmm.. 1 gb flash disc kinda interesting ^_^

took a break and had a cup of juice
and then we went home
and here i am...

Birthday... Birthday...

Selamat ulang tahun Eyang Harry
Selamat ulang tahun Mas Kikies
Selamat ulang tahun Liana

ps :
tadi ditelpon Bella,
ngucain selamat ulang tahun ^_^
.. lebih baik terlambat daripada tidak sama sekali

?

How can I say goodbye to someone I never had ?

Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine ?

Why is that I miss someone I was never with ?

Why I love someone who's love was never mine ?

copy paste dari Phara

Cinta Mati

Lima tahun yang lalu,
pada pohon tua di halaman sekolah,
Aku sesumbar akan membelah dada ini dan memberimu lihat jantungnya.
Mengenakan baju zirah yang paling berat,
lalu pergi berperang.

Demi kamu!
Kugurat namamu dalam - dalam di sini (menunjuk dada.red)
Kulukis wajahmu dalam mimpi dan kusebut namamu.
Jika ada yang kucintai sampai mati,
kaulah tentu orangnya.
Dirimu adalah berarti segalanya - kupikir begitu.

Oh terkutuklah aku, bajingan!
Alih alih semua sesumbar itu,
mengobati luka pun aku tak sanggup.

Bukannya betadin yang kuberi,
justru ego berkarat, lagi beracun.
Pertalian kita mati karena infeksi,
dan aku masih merasa cinta mati padamu.

Sungguh tidak tau malu.

Aku cinta padamu - sungguh
tapi perbuatanku berdusta.
Cinta tanpa perbuatan adalah tipu daya.
Ah aku tidak tahu lagi diriku.

Lima tahun yang lalu,
pada pohon tua di halaman sekolah,
hingga saat kutulis ini, kukatakan:

tidak ada wanita sebaik dirimu,
Terpujilah Tuhan yang menciptakanmu ke dunia ini!
Berbahagialah pria yang kau pilih,
berbahagialah kalian sampai jompo.

Terlebih berbahagialah kau, Sayang - jika boleh kupanggil begitu
bila yang kau pilih bukan aku.
Karena pinokio kecil ini tiada layak bagimu.

copy paste dari Phara

Berteriak

Misalkan aku berdiri di sini,
di tepi sungai Amazon,
dan kamu berada di seberang sana.

Satu - satunya cara
agar aku bisa memanggil namamu
tanpa harus menyebrang adalah dengan berteriak,
memanggilmu keras - keras.

Ada jarak yang memisahkan
dan kita baru bisa dekat dengan berteriak.

Tapi ketika sekarang kita tinggal dalam satu kamar yang sama,
aku dan kamu masih juga saling teriak.

Ada yang jauh,
kita ingin dekat,
ada yang memisahkan kita namun bukan jarak...
....Hati

Blink182 Latest Update

Tom DeLonge Announcement
9/15/2005 3:06:00 PM - by geffen

For the past 6 months,
Tom DeLonge has been in the studio preparing the greatest rock-n-roll revolution for this generation. Stay tuned to Macbeth Shoes for the latest news regarding Tom DeLonge's new band, Angels and Airwaves
"I love my fans, and I promise, I will not let you down. The music that we all grew to charish that was made, not only will continue, but it will be much, much better. All I can say is hold on, and prepare..." -- tom delonge
» www.angelsandairwaves.com


Mark's New Podcast And Blog
9/13/2005 3:00:00 PM - by Geffen

From himynameismark.comWelcome to a fantastic waste of time and a desperate cry for attention. this is going to happen every two weeks, and will consist of all things rad. bands you haven't heard of, bands you have heard of, and bands i haven't heard of. and maybe, if we are all very lucky, bands i have heard of. i'm going to use this as an excuse to discuss things important (and unimportant) to me and my friends. welcome to a fantastic waste of time. enjoy.Podcast:iTunes LinkRSS Feed
» himynameismark.com


Greatest Hits
9/6/2005 6:29:23 AM - by cgeorggin

Blink-182 "Greatest Hits" due out November 1st.Tracks from "Cheshire Cat," "Dude Ranch," "Enema of the State," "The Mark, Tom and Travis Show," "Take Off Your Pants And Jacket" and "Blink-182."Also included two bonus tracks - one recorded during the "Blink-182" sessions, the other, "Another Girl, Another Planet" (theme from "Meet the Barkers").

Kereta Terakhir, Antar Aku Pulang!

Kata - kata bisa saja puitis, tapi realita tidak selalu romantis.
Mungkin ngga keren berjalan lambat bersama kura - kura,
Hey, siapa yang butuh predikat keren? Yang aku ingin hanya hidup - sampai di finish
Menjadi yang pertama atau terakhir, tetap saja juara.
Hidup hanya sekali, jangan sia - siakan hanya untuk menjadi figur populer.
Lakukan apa yang perlu dilakukan, pikirkan yang penting dipikirkan
Menjadi diri sendiri berarti siap dibelenggu
karena di dunia yang serba seragam ini, tidak ada yang lebih alien daripada be yourself.
Jangan berpikir terlalu jauh, nanti sesat
Lihat cucian sudah menumpuk!
Daripada memikirkan tumpukannya,
Mengapa tidak kau ambil satu, setrika, lipat lalu susun dilemari?
La la la la

Paradox

I have found the paradox that
if I love until it hurts,
then there is no hurt,
but only more love.

(Mother Teresa)

Chinese saying...

Many relationships failed
because one party tries to overpower another,
or demands too much.

People in love tend to think
that love will conquer all
and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage.

Actually,
this is not the case.
There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that
"It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."
It is not easy to change.

related not united

Step into the dark
Hoping to see a spark
Hoping to find a mark
All i can hear is bark

Cry as loud as you can
no one will see you
Scream as loud as you can
no one can hear you

Pressure on my chest
Things i can't confess
I'm just a mess
Wanna run and crash

Teardrops on my hand
Feels like an empty can
What's His plan
Something i don't understand

This field of rice
Full of surprise
I know the price
If i step on a mice

Cut it away
Things are better of that way
Maybe on the next may
I'll have something to say

Standing by the port
The sun Stabbing like a fork
Need a place where i can work
Some place like a morgue

Waiting in this square
girl with long hair over there
Songs hanging in the air
Where's the one i can share

Treasure - The Cure

She whispers
"Please remember me
When I am gone from here"

She whispers
"Please remember me
but not with tears...

Remember I was always true
Remember that I always tried

Remember I loved only you
Remember me and smile...

For it better to forget
Than to remember me and cry"

"Remember I was always true
Remember that I always tried

Remember I loved only you
Remember me and smile...

For it better to forget
Than to remember me and cry"

wasn't so bad at all

kemaren senen gua minta laporan di hard cover
kemaren gua ambil taunya belum dikerjain sama sekali... crap !
tadi ke unpad lagi ngambil
akhirnya beres juga
tapi hasil kerjanya gak bagus euy T_T

tapi gak gitu kerasa lagi pas ketemu Gilang
Dia temenku di EF dulu
dia lagi ama cowoknya (Gilang is a she)
make baju pink !!!
sapa bentar trus udahan
dia entah mau kemana ma cowoknya dan gua mau pulang

ee... taunya di jalan ketemu Monik
Monik nih anaknya temennya bonyok gua
kebetulan temen baeknya temen gua
kebetulan juga mantannya temen gua
kebetulan junior gua di prova dan angela
wuih... banyak bener ^_^

dia juga mau pulang
jadi gua tawarin pulang bareng
dia ketrima di hukum unpad
angkatan 05
selamat ya !

tadi makan dulu di baso rudal
baru gua anter pulang
rumah Monik di ujung berung

little things that counts
little things that brights up your day ^_^

Pos pertama dari Mario

Seperti katanya BoA: Konichiwa Hello Anyong Haseo.

KRK

kalau kalian belum tau kepanjangan dari KRK...
..Kebangkitan Rohani Katolik !

ngajakin Syu keluar malem minggu besok
taunya dia pergi ke acara KRK di sabuga
hiks...

dia nyuruh dateng sekalian ngeceng
sial... perasaan kemaren pas ultah aja semua temen ngucapin selamat pake embel2 moga2 cepet dapet jodoh T_T
ok.. jadi gua dikenal karena kejombloan gua ?!

tapi gua males dateng ke acara begituan
males banget dateng sendirian
lagian Syu dateng ama temen2nya
temen2 gua mana ada yang mau dateng ke acara begituan

no more lonely weekend ah !

zzz.. zz... z...

apa gara2 capuchino ya ?
terakhir ke Hanamasa waktu ultah Giri juga sama ...
gua malemnya gak bisa tidur
semalem aja gua baru bisa tidur jam 4
sucks...
bad way to start a day T_T

Galau

lagi nunggu nge-burn cd
bikin cd audio
lagu2 akustik
great songs
some of them are really thouch my heart

iya nih
gua emang lagi suka musik akustik
kalo gak pop akustik (apa ya nama jenis musiknya?)
lagi suka John Mayer, Jason Mraz, Lisa Loeb, Michele Branch, ehm.... Hanson
yang model lagu2nya gitu deh...

winamp lagi muter The Cure - Treasure
hmm... jadi sesak dengernya
yup.... lagu2 The Cure emang soundtracknya orang kayak gua
gua sendiri sekarang jadi suka The Cure ^_^
dulu padahal biasa aja

karena sesuatu orang bisa berubah
gua aja ampe bisa dengerin Kris Dayanti bahkan Peterpan !
untuk itu gua minta maaf untuk punkers semuanya ^_^

gua dapet mpeg L'Arc~en~Ciel yang live nih
Heavenly tour, Smile tour, Smile USA tour
untuk Mario....
tenang Man !
loe pasti gua copy-in ^_^

terkadang dengerin lagu bikin kita marah bikin kita sedih
bisa membuat kita menyesal
membuat kita bersemangat
membuat kita sadar
membuat kita berpikir
membuat kita tenang
membantu kita tidur mungkin ?

a song can be damn so good
bahkan sangking bagusnya bisa bikin kita membencinya
nadanya,
liriknya,
memori yang keluar...
emosi penyanyinya mungkin
hati kita dibuat tersentuh

itulah sebabnya gua suka dengerin lagu
nge-burn cd (melanggar hak cipta tapi toh gak ada tujuan ekonomisnya ^_^)
lebih mudah mengungkapkan perasaan lewat lagu
karena lewat lagu perasaan kita terwakili

andai gua bisa bikin lagu
gua bakal bikin lagu tersedih yang pernah ada


/rambut gua cat dark brown/

blah.. blah.. blah..

Birthday Boy !
that's rite
i'm a boy not a man
jadi kalo rada nyebelin annoying gapapa lah
so be it (!!???)

pengkhianat
asshole
jerk
dickhead
bastard
sucker
i'm anything you want
.. and i don't care

"Age is an issue of mind over matter.
If you don't mind, it doesn't matter"
-Mark Twain-

hari ini ada 2 hal yang menyenangkan (in no particular order)

+ satu..
Ghost of You jadi single ketiga My Chemical Romance
lagu ini lagu fave gua di album mereka yang terbaru
cuman sayang konsep videonya mirip banget ama Green Day's Wake Me Up When September Ends
tadi baru ngopy2 file di rumah Denny..
my punkrock mate ^_^
You Rockin' Dude !

tapi belum gua copy ke HD komp rumah
capek soalnya
besok aja

+ Dua...
hari ini gua ulang tahun
dan hal yang terindah bukanlah kado..
tapi perhatian dari temen2
jadi diucapin selamat gua dah seneng banget
merasa diperhatiin ^_^

Thanx friends...
temen friendster yang gak kenal aja ngucapin selamat.
selamat untuk Karen sebagai yang pertama ngucapin selamat ^_^
dan my bud Hadi sebagai yang terakhir, jam 23.53 !
it's okay Mate ^_^

note :
blogger kayaknya lagi pemeliharaan
jadinya "cannot find server" mulu
jadi blog ini gua tulis dulu di notepad
besok baru gua post
.. and i'm hungry T_T

Stay - U2

"You said when he hurt you
You don't mind
Because when he hurt you
You feel alive"

anyway...
you should check Phara's blog
loaded with nice words

my HD also loeaded with more mp3 and mpeg ^_^

go to Mario's blog
and download the audio clip
you will hear Chiyo singing ^_^
Chiyo is my fave character from anime Azumanga Daioh ^_^

A!

Another Birthdays

Happy Birthday Iko & Om Robby ^_^

ps: this weekend sucks !

Happy Birthday, Dandy !

we've been such a good friends since junior high...
wow.. that's a really long time !
nine years and counting !

Selamat ulang tahun juga untuk Om Merkurius ^_^

hibah dari Mario

Ayumi Hamasaki - M

'Maria'
there's a person out there for all the wounded ones...
When I look around,
I see that everyone have lost their way,
rushing away to somewhere.

This year that sense of winter has just snuck right up on me.
Today surely the couple that meet and catch one another's gaze will fervently raise the curtain,

But even that will surely someday be over,
and somewhere in this city that couple that choose to part today will quietly lower the curtain.

'MARIA'
there's someone out there
Sometimes I feel great loneliness,

But this person out there for me
He'll somehow be able to fill me in.

'MARIA'
there's someone out there
sometimes bearing deep deep wounds
but that someone out there for me
he'll be healed in the end.

'MARIA'
everyone is crying.
but i want to believe

Ngisep Ganja

dua hari terakhir Joanne my ex iseng miskol malem2
tiap miskol gua sms nanya ada apa
tapi gak dibales
semalem akhirnya gua telpon

dia bilang iseng aja
dia lagi ma temen2nya
ngisep ganja ... !!!!

hah ?! ...jadi dia iseng miskol gua tiap kali dia ngisep ganja...?
tau deh ganja ato apa....

yang jelas gua gak suka
dan dia langsung minta udahan telponnya
ya udah lah
terserah dia
dah gede ini

gua cuman bisa ngasih nasehat lewat sms
status dah ex tp masih tetep bikin pusing gua aja tuh anak

oya...
kemaren emang rada berat
abis dia ultah sih
jadinya mikirin dia mulu
Beng2 bilang telpon aja tapi gak usah lama2
so i did ^_^
telpon cuman ngucapin selamat ulang tahun aja
shortest phone conversation duration with her

(do i say it right? yah you know lah... my english is really bad)

VW Golf GTI 2.0 FSI Turbo

Ada yang mau ngebeliin gak ?
...damn i want this car !

0-100 kpj : 6,9 detik
matik 6 tingkat kecepatan with Direct Shift Gearbox (DSG) (Kopling Ganda)
2.0 Liter Fsi Turbocharger (200 PK / 6.000 rpm)
Torsi maksimum : 280 Nm / 1.800 - 5.000 rpm
suspensi independen

Keamanan pasif :
- 6 airbags
- seatbelt on each seats
- Head Restraint/ pelindung kepala (aktif untuk kursi pengemudi)
- 5 bintang uji tabrakan Euro NCAP

Keamanan Aktif
- Electronic Stability Program (ESP)
- Traction Control System (TCS)
- Anti-lock Breaking System (ABS)
- Electronik Differential Lock (EDL)
- Disc Break on every wheel

click those for detail and full information :
http://www.conceptcarz.com/vehicle/default.aspx?carID=8239
http://www.vw.co.id/

I Think I'm Paranoid

Jadi panic sendiri tiap kali liat soluna biru kalo gak getz merah
Langsung perhatiin platnya
Cd kosong belinya yang warna pink
Casing cd yang pink juga
Beli boneka babi pink (dan langsung diminta kakak gua T_T)
Ow my God ...?!

It’s when you’re trying to forget someone
But anything still reminds you …
Hard to say goodbye to yesterday
You just can’t get out

Anyway….
Tadi ke borma setiabudi
Beli cd kosong and friends
Berikut kertas A4
Laporan TA belum ngumpulin
Pas nge-print kertasnya abis
Sempet melihat getz merah melintas….
bweh… stop torturing yourself Greg !

kemaren ke toko musik di Dipati Ukur
liat2 cd ama kaset
kalo mau cari yang aneh2 ada deh semuanya di situ
yang cd sih asli cuman yang kaset kalo gak palsu ya barang second

banyak banget yang gua pengen
cuman sayang palsu T_T
jadinya beli MXPX – Ten Years And Still Running
palsu 15 ribu…
ada album baru John Mayer asli, 18 ribu masih diplastikin
sampe rumah jadi nyesel gak beli T_T

sekarang di mobil gua dengerinnya MXPX
band punk yang ibaratnya dah masuk strata dewa ^_^
godfather of punk

“we ain’t got nowhere to go...
.......so let’s go to a punkrock show
my darling take me by the hand...
.......we gonna see a punkrock band”

070905

for the girl who know that this message is for her....

Happy Birthday ^_^

sunday

pagi mpe siang di rumah
cuman nonton tv...
telpon temen ..
makan....
boring lah !

siang jam 2an jemput bonyok di cimahi
mereka abis nginep di lembang

sore Yovita sms
nanya keadaan gua
senengnya...
ngerasa diperhatiin ^_^

gua ajak keluar aja sekalian
dan dia mau

awalnya mau ke bsm aja soalnya rumah Yovita kan di daerah situ
taunya dia mesti ke rumah temennya di Tirtayasa
jadinya kita ke ciwalk

di mobil dengerin Glenn
sealbum lagunya bring back all those memories T_T
ternyata Yovita juga belum bisa ngelupain seseorang
berdua karaoke deh di mobil ^_^

makan di Avenue
tadi makan apa ya ?
namanya lupa
minumnya mikshake double cheese
susu rasa keju ^_^

kebetulan di ciwalk Gigi manggung
nongkrong bentar
telpon Aat kasih tau ada Gigi di ciwalk
Aat nge-fans ma Gigi
dengerin 4 lagu trus pulang

tumben banget nih gua...
sabtu ma minggu keluar rumah ^_^

iseng

1. Sekarang kamu lagi denger lagu apa?
= winamp lagu muter L'Arc~en~Ciel - Killing Time
= lately dengerin album The Used - In Love And Death ama Glenn Fredly - Selamat Pagi Dunia

2. Sekarang kamu lagi pake baju warna apa?
= biru

3. Sekarang kamu udah mandi belom?
= tadi sore

4. Kamu sekarang pake sepatu ga?
= 9ak

5. Sekarang sapa yang lagi kamu kangenin?
= prefer not to say

6. Sekarang kamu lagi suka sama lagu apa?
= Aerosmith - Hole In My Soul

7. Sekarang rencananya kamu mau kemana?
= bobo

Terakhir..
1. SMS terakhir yang kamu terima isinya?
= greg jemput gua di tirtayasa 38

2. telpon terakhir ma sapa?
= Yovita

3.Baju yang terakhir kamu pake sebelum baju sekarang?
= kaos Spellbound pemberian kakak

4.Apa saja yang terakhir kamu pegang?
= keyboard, mouse

5.Apa yang terakhir kamu minum sama makan?
= milkshake double cheese, makanannya lupa namanya ^_^

6. Apa kalimat terakhir yang kamu bilang?
= siapa yang ngeluarin barndo ama brandy ?

7.Terakhir kali kamu foto??
= lupa

Merk..
1. sekarang lagi pake tas merk apa?
= Bodypack

2.Hpmu merk apa?
= orange ericsson r310

3.Sepatu kamu merk apa?
= converse, reebok, adidas

4. merk minded ?
= cuman sepatu

5.Paling sering baca buku apa?
= buku ? apa ya ?

Apa
1. Apa makanan yg ingin kamu makan saat ini?
= gada, kenyang soalnya

2. Apa yang sedang ada di TV kamu?
= tv dah off

3. Barang apa yang ada di samping kanan/kiri
= komputer and friends

4. Apa saja kegiatan kamu hari ini?
= entar gua kasih tau ^_^

5. Siapakah orang terakhir yg kamu ajak bicara?
= nyokap

6. Apa kata-kata penutupnya?
= apa ya ?

7. Lagu apa yg sedang kamu dengarkan?
= Team Sleep - Never

8. Apa yang ada di benakmu tepat saat ini?
= will she think of me?

9. Apakah rencanamu untuk malam ini?
= tidur !

10. Siapakah idola kamu??
= travis barker

11. Bagaimanakah keadaan cuaca skarang?
= panas

12. Bagaimanakah keadaan rambutmu skrg?
= dry

13. Apakah kamu saat ini memikirkan seseorang?
= yap

14. Apakah kamu sedang mencintai orang lain?
= Yup

16.Minyak wangi yang pengen kamu beli saat ini?
= -

17. Apakah kamu menginginkan pergi ke suatu tempat?
= yup

18. Apakah yang kamu sebalkan hari ini?
= cuaca

19. Apa permintaanmu hari ini?
= gak mau kesepian

23:50

tadi sore jam 5 kurang berangkat ke rumah Bella di Reog
milih lewat kiara condong
selepas perempatan gatsu-kircon dari arah berlawanan liat Hyundai Getz warna merah

could it be Her ?!
could it be the Little Red Beast ?
masuk akal...
Hyundai Getz merah
di kiara condong
jam 5an dengan asumsi biar nyampe di "sana" sebelum jam 6

memang harus muter
abis muter dia dah gada
entah lurus lewat fly over ato belok ke gatsu

gak jelas kemana....
kaca pengemudi di turunin tapi gak penuh
jadi gak keliatan pengemudinya

berhubung harus ke rumah Bella gua gak ngejar tuh mobil ^_^
belok ke gatsu deh...

gila.... gua ketemu lagi ma bokapnya Bella yang super galak itu
awalnya deg2an eeeee taunya Om Andreas lagi murah senyum ^_^

abis jemput Bella jemput temennya di Karapitan
namanya Paula
dan ternyata.........!
gua kenal dia
temen gua juga tapi gak deket
dia ceweknya temen seangkatan gua di unpar

dia junior gua
dulu kuliah ngedobel di DKV ITB bareng Bella ama di Ilmu komputer unpar
trus yang unpar dilepas

well.... dunia memang kecil
jadinya gada masalah tuk ngobrol ^_^

kita ke ITB
ada acara welcome 05
nice ^_^
nonton atraksi seni sambil ngabisin rokok ^_^

trus makan di rest chinese food di tubagus ismail
dari ITB jam 9an
mumpung jam 9an... kali aja nih.... ^_^
ke Simpang iseng lewat sumur bandung
no red Hyundai Getz or blue Toyota Soluna
iseng aja sih
mumpung searah he3....

pas makan ada temen Bella yang ikut
namanya Tejo
gua pikir anak jawa
taunya orang bali !
namanya bla3 Ktut Suteja

nama yang gak umum untuk orang bali
apalagi namanya ktut tapi dia bukan anak keempat
for your information....
anak keempat di bali biasa diberi nama ktut

bis makan anterin pulang

ampe rumah jam 11:30an

new people
new experience
great saturday night
gak pake macet pula ^_^

Closing Time

semalem ngirim e-mail yang terakhir buat dia
jujur aja gua sekarang ngerasa tenang
gak kayak sebulan yang lalu

walau gua gak berharap e-mail gua dibales
tapi liat mailbox gada e-mail baru... T_T

hapus semua yang bisa ngingetin ato ngehubungin gua ke dia
lebih baik begitu
biar gada godaan
biar bisa cepet lupain dia
soalnya yang satu ini susah banget dilupain ^_^
yah.. mending begini... buat gua juga ini...

sekarang jadi sering dengerin album
The Used - In Love And Death
gak nyangka bisa jadi album terapi gua he3....
gak usah repot2 nyari album ini
they don't sell it here in Indonesia

long weekend nih...
artinya jangan keluar rumah huahahahahaha ^_^
kemaren malem nganter bonyok ke geger kalong ampe 1 jam

pulang daripada kena macet
jadinya pulang lewat tol aja deh
pasteur - buah batu ^_^
3000 ribu rupiah
tambah jauh tapi bebas macet

Nova lagi ke bandung nih
tapi gua telpon hpnya gak aktif mulu
tau deh napa....

Karen ke jakarta
Bella latian basket
Dahono lagi ke jogja ma anak2 mudika laurensius
ah pusing nih kalo mikirin malem minggu
gada yang bisa gua ajak keluar
masa ma Audra lagi ?!

yang jelas gua gak mau ngejar2 cewek dulu
kasian... artinya gua make dia buat ngeluapain yang lain
seperti kata temen2 gua (dia juga pernah bilang)
entar juga nongol sendiri ^_^

well....
life goes on...
i guess this is growing up aey ?! ^_^
i hope i'll be just fine

Peterpan - Semua Tentang Kita

Waktu terasa semakin berlalu
Tinggalkan cerita tentang kita
Akan tiada lagi kini tawamu
Tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati

Teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama
Ceritakan semua tentang kita

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

...

Sebuah luka berparas tawa
Semua tawa berlapis hampa

Hapus semua ingatan
Suka duka kehilangan makna

Suka menjadi duka
Duka membawa air mata

Apa artinya masa lalu
Jika tidak akan ada masa depan

Nice Dream

how about if we put Travis of Blink182 behind the drums,
ask Cone of Sum41 to play bass,

Frank of My Chemical Romance to be the lead guitar ?
don't forget Brody from The Distillers to play guitar and as backing vocal,

hmm... let see...
Bert of The Used as the lead vocal !

yeah...
and they play Green Day's Wake Me Up When September Ends
that would be awsome !

September Already ?!

tengah malem hp gua berdering
siapa gerangan nelpon malem2 begini

ternyata Karen
lagi2 dia lagi bete
pengen curhat

dia lagi ada masalah
harus milih antara hobi yang sangat dia sukai dan pekerjaan
dengerin dia "berkicau"
lucunya kicauan dia tuh sebenernya dah ngejawab pertanyaan dia sendiri
gua jadi bingung mau ngomong apa ^_^

curhat juga masalah pekerjaan
orang2 kantor yang ngegosipin dia
ngejelek2in dia
tapi gua salut ama dia
dia orang yang kuat, pejuang, punya determinasi
ngiri nih...

anyway..
selamat datang di dunia kerja, Dot ^_^

nelpon ampe 2 jam lebih
ampe dia sendiri ngantuk
seneng bisa bikin dia feeling better
walau gua cuman dengerin dia sih ^_^

4 pm

pernah gak kalian merasa ketakutan yang amat sangat
karena kalian mendapati seseorang tak ingin lagi berhubungan dengan kalian ?
entah itu teman, sahabat, atau yang lainnya..

gua semalem ngalamin itu dan rasanya gak enak banget
gelisah, jantung berdetak cepat
rasanya gak karuan banget deh
merasa harus melakukan sesuatu,
hal2 yang gua pernah janji untuk tidak melakukannya lagi

Thank God semuanya "normal" lagi, is it? surely hope so...
setidaknya gua pulang dengan perasaan lebih tenang

tapi gak bantu gua tidur sih
jam 2.30 pagi masih belum bisa tidur
akhirnya bikin teh dulu

bangun kesiangan
ada kul jam 7... apes deh

sampe kampus jam 9 tapi parkir dah susah
dulu jam segitu masih gampang
apa anak2 05 pada bawa mobil semua ya ?
jadinya parkir di ciumbeuleuit atas banget T_T

gak ada ujan gak ada angin Bella sms gua
Bella tuh mantan pacar gua kalo belum tau
begini bunyi sms-nya :

Happy Moment... Praise God
Difficult Moment... Seek God
Quiet Moment... Worship God
Painful Moment... Trust God
Every Moment... Thank God

entah kenapa dia sms kayak gitu
yang jelas memang momen gua sekarang lagi abnormal ^_^
hmmm... how do she know ?

kelar kul makan siang ma Joezer as usual
Kristopher bergabung beberapa saat kemudian
ke unpar minta Joezer ngoreksi permintaan bea siswa yang dia bikin

trus gua ma Kristopher duduk2 di terowongan rektorat
Joezer balik ke perpus kerja

what do you know... ketemu Syu lg
hmmm... Tuhan, apa itu pertanda aku harus ngejar Syu lagi ? ^_^
ngejar cewek untuk melupakan cewek
it's not right but it's okay huahahahahaha.....
is it okay ?
udahlah... emang Syu apaan..

malem ini ngapain ya ?
print TA biar besok di hardcover
pengen OL tapi gak nyalahin dia sih kalo dia appear offline
me and my stupid mouth

"_"

sungguh benar bahwa kita tidak tahu apa yang kita miliki sampai kita kehilangannya,
tetapi sungguh benar pula kita tidak tahu apa yang belum pernah kita miliki sampai kita menemukannya.

mungkin Tuhan mengginginkan kita bertemu dengan beberapa orang yang salah
sebelum kita bertemu dengan orang yang tepat,
kita harus mengerti bagaimana harus berterima kasih atas karunia itu,
dan kita harus bersyukur atas karunia itu.

cinta dimulai dengan sebuah senyuman,
bertumbuh dengan sebuah ciuman,
dan diakhiri dengan tetesan air mata...
tetapi yang paling penting adalah kamu masih tetap peduli padanya
dan sebuah karunia besar karena dia masih percaya padaku

seseorang berkata hidup adalah perjuangan
kalau begitu aku harus berjuang dengan keras
dan mencoba untuk terus bertahan

God will give us happiness in His time

gua rasa gua harus berpegang pada kata2 itu
harus sering2 berkata itu
agar sifat pengecut dan cengengku bisa hilang
agar tidak mengambil jalan pintas
agar mulai berpikir positif

semangat !

::

hal yang paling menyedihkan dalam hidup
adalah ketika kamu bertemu dengan seseorang yang sangat berarti dalam hidupmu
dan mendapati pada akhirnya bahwa tidak demikian adanya
dan kamu harus melepaskannya

Monday

abis dari kampus mampir ke IP
pengen ke toko Visi mau beli majalah Rajawali
Karen nyaranin gua beli itu
buat renungan dll deh katanya..

what do you know..
topiknya gua banget
gua beli deh
trus sms Karen kalo gua dah beli

gak lama ada telpon masuk
dari Karen
iseng nelpon soalnya dia juga baru beli

well...gak sepenuhnya iseng sih
dia minta dianterin ke dokter sorenya

jadinya diem bentar di IP
makan lomie Yamie-Yamie
btw... cost-nya sama ama beli juice di MM Juice
gua masih dendam tuh beli juice di MM ^_^

killing time makan sambil baca Kahlil Gibran ^_^
gua mesti jemput di nisp cibeunying jam 5
sebelumnya mampir Aquarius
biasalah... liat2..
can you believe it ?!
gua yang penggemar punk kepikiran buat beli Mariah Carey ?!!!!
girl can make you do crazy things ^_^

dokternya ada di Kalipah Apo
ke apotek juga deket2 situ
trus anter pulang

tadinya Karen ngajak makan
tapi dia inget dia lagi diet ^_^

tadinya ngajak Ngafe juga
tapi dia inget lagi mesti belajar soalnya besok ujian di TBI ^_^

dia sekarang ndut ^_^
rambutnya dicat rada2 coklat
cocok banget deh ma orangnya
kawat giginya juga ganti warna jadi ijo
masih bawel seperti dulu ^_^

dia ada rencana 2 taun lagi mau pindah ke jakarta
bonyoknya juga dah liat2 rumahdi BSD bo' !
gua pernah kesana
jauh bener ^_^

oya...weekend ini gua bakal sendirian
jumat mpe minggu
bonyok ma kakak gua bakal nginep di lembang
ada acara reuni gitu deh bonyok gua

tapi tadi barusan Kristopher tlp
booking gua buat pergi maen hari jumat besok
kan tanggal merah tuh

Missing Someone

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think that he/she doesn't miss u?
Almost everyone has..
Read on..

Missing someone is terrible
but at the same time, a sweet feeling.

U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings,
hoping that it's him/her.

Looking out of the window hoping
that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television
but thinking of her/him missing the final episode of your favourite show.

Laying on your bed,
thinking of the last time u went out together.

Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again,
talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to seehim/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't online
and did not return your page,
u will start worrying if he/she is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.

It teaches u how to cope with being lonely
and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.

Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care
and you indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.

But missing someone
and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.

So if u miss someone,
tell him/her and let them know.

At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.

If u are the one being missed and u know it,
let the other party know.

if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.

really hate saturday night
dunno what to do
everybody busy with their family, boyfriend, girlfriend, or have something to do
it's getting empty here...

tau sih kalo Audra bakal pergi ma Kevin cowoknya
tapi cuek soalnya dah lama gak telpon
dia ngajak gua ikutan
gak enak sih tapi Audra maksa (and i thank You ^_^)
katanya toh gua juga dah kenal ma Kevin
dan daripada gua bengong di rumah
well, She's rite..
at least i wouldn't be alone she said

jadinya pengen ngajak Rini juga
dah lama kita gak jalan bareng
sayang Dahono sibuk ngurus acara retreat minggu depan

ngumpul di rumah audra jam 6
Wini dedenya Audra ngingetin gua ke seseorang
rambut panjang lurus
putih
pake baju pink
FYI... Audra nyuruh gua pdkt aja ke Wini (maybe one day Dra... maybe someday day ^_^)

coba tebak semalem kita pergi kemana ?
Bale Pare !
yup... Kota Baru Parahyangan ^_^

di mobil Kevin muter kaset jadul banget
fun factory - i love you
backstreet boys - i'll never break your heart
dll...
pokoknya tuh lagu2 pas gua smp kelas 2 banget
langsung deh kita nostalgia jaman smp dulu ^_^

Bale Pare rame juga...
malem minggu kali ya
ada live band
good looking girls (hey.... boleh dunk menghibur diri!)

makan di lantai atas
nice view good food
hmmm.... udang tepung goreng, fuyung hai, cap cay
gua pesen milkshake strawberry (good taste good color ^_^)

disana ada dedenya bosnya Audra

oya.... ada yang ganggu banget
ada bapak2 pengen ikutan nyanyi
ama homebandnya dikasih
gayanya ganggu banget deh pokoknya
dah gitu dikasih dua lagu malah minta lagi
dasar gak tau diri
act kayak dia yang manggung
you're not dickhead !
mood gua langsung turun...

anjingnya tetangganya Audra baru ngelahirin loh
lucu2 anak anjingnya
ada satu yang lucu banget
item putih ndut pula... kayak anak sapi ^_^

Thanx ya Dra...

Loaded

gua masuk2in lagi mp3 lama gua
dulu gua hapusin berhubung keterbatasan HD

sekarang playlist gua gak cuman punk ama emo
tapi ada hip metal, pop akustik, britpop, rock, dll
buat variasi biar gak bosen

tapi...
mp3 di HD gua jadinya ampir 5 GB
masih belum jadi masalah kok he3....

oya...
beberapa minggu yang lalu temen gua Erna pernah bilang
kalo hari kayak cepet banget berlalu
dulu gua gak setuju ma dia
tapi sekarang gua jadi sependapat ma dia

hmm....
winamp lagi muter The Cure - Trust

anyway,
c u tomorow
tomorow's saturday and i have no clue what i'm going to do

blue turn grey

it happen again
my eyes are melting
listening to emo can be dangerous you know
and why the hell i can't be tough

wondering did i make the right decision
should i stay
should i go away
doesn't really matter
both hurts

i tried real hard
believe me
i thought this way will be easier for me
i guess it's not
but still i try

know what..
baru aja bokap terima tlp dari kakak gua
honda gua diserempet orang trus pas nyampe di kantor nabrak
both in one day ?!
poor Dad..
gua aja dengernya sesek palagi Babe yang punya tuh mobil

rencana hari ini...?
seperti biasa tiap jumat gua ke Karmel
setelah kuliah tentu saja

Lucky Me ^_^

semalem chatting ampe jam 3 pagi kalo gak salah
terbangun jam 8an...
let see... tidur 5 jam
lumayan lah n_n

cuman bawaannya ngantuk nih
mana tadi ngepel rumah
makin pengen tidur ^_^

untung gua hari ini kuliah jam 3....
hah ... jam 3 ?!
damn....!
semoga ntar gua gak ngantuk di kelas

gua belum hafal jadwal kuliah
jadi kalo tadi ada kuliah pagi ya apes aja gua he3....

...

tau nih
tiba2 jadi kangen banget
getting harder to breathe..
can feel my heart beating...

Telepon Subuh

jam 5 kurang hp gua dua2nya bergantian berbunyi
siapa gerangan ?
ternyata Karen

aku jawab sambil setengah tidur
dia lagi kesel
kemaren dia ke jakarta untuk training
dikirim kantor
gak bisa cerita detailnya... ^_^

yang jelas dia lagi kesel
dan kita ngobrol cukup lama
well gak persis ngobrol sih
more like gua dengerin dia curhat

girls likes to share their stories to me
but that's about it
nothing more
oh well...
at least they trust me ^_^

tadi sampe di kampus langsung ke perpus
bukan nyari buku
tapi ke kantor Joezer
nitip scan foto ha3....
buat gua taruh di Fs
mau liat ?
nih alamat e-mail yang gua pake buat Fs
g1v3n@yahoo.com

anyway...
dah gitu brunch ma Joezer di sentra kampus

tadi ketemu Ema..
kemaren juga ketemu

well...
tadi ketemu Syu juga
benernya dah gua telponin tapi gak diangkat
pengen ketemuan aja
paling hp ditaruh di tas

pas jalan kedepan mau pulang gua liat dia
dari belakang kayak beda
dia sekarang pake kaca mata
rambutnya makin "kuning" ^_^
with a new hairstyle

tadi pulang ke rumah rada2 serem
soalnya gua lupa bawa stnk he3...
untung gak ada pemeriksaan di jalan n_n

Bermimpi

Bermimpi itu perlu.
Menjaga mimpi-mimpi kita agar tetap hidup,
tidak mati ditelan oleh realitas.

Dan mimpi itu perlu.
Mimpi membuat hidup menjadi lebih semangat.

Mimpi memotivasi kita untuk terus berkreasi,
mencapai sesuatu yang baru,
yang mendekatkan kita pada peng-realisasian mimpi.

found it !

kasetnya ternyata ngumpet di laci mobil
ketutupan kresek putih

not much to say
siang ke bank print buku tabungan
sekalian ngambil kartu atm baru

ke BSM liat2 buat kado
found the item but teringat kalo di IP harganya lebih murah
ke IP lah gua

minum jus bentar di foodcourt
remind not to buy juice from MM juice again okay !
goddamn expensive !

pulang mampir kapel Boromeus
tapi di tutup T_T
masa sih gua mesti ke Karmel tiap hari ?!
ada yang tau gereja atau kapel yang gak pernah ditutup gak ?

last but not least....
Happy Birthday Firly !

lusa giliran Karen ultah....

good start

good monday ^_^
bangun pagi
tapi lupa kalo kuliah jam 1 siang he3...

jam 12 ke Q College ketemu dosen pembimbing
dosennya dateng gak pake ngaret ... hore !!!!!!!!!!!!!
biasanya susah banget sih ketemunya
that's it !
TA dah disetujui
tinggal kumpulin hardcopynya ^_^

langsung cabut ke unpar
ada jadwal praktikum jam 1 tapi baru minggu depan mulainya ^_^
asik bener !

kul lagi jam 3
nunggu 2 jam deh tapi gapapa...
ada Temen
kuliahnya juga enak Dosennya
sip dah !

ps : i can't find my Jamie Cullum cassette, dimana ya ?

Must Read !!!

Ketika kita bertemu orang yang tepat untuk dicintai,
Ketika kita berada di tempat pada saat yang tepat,
Itulah kesempatan.

Ketika kita bertemu dengan seseorang yang membuatmu tertarik,
Itu bukan pilihan,
itu kesempatan.

Bertemu dalam suatu peristiwa bukanlah pilihan,
Itupun adalah kesempatan.

Bila kita memutuskan untuk mencintai orang tersebut,
Bahkan dengan segala kekurangannya,
Itu bukan kesempatan,
itu adalah pilihan.

Ketika kita memilih bersama dengan seseorang walaupun apapun yang terjadi,
Itu adalah pilihan.

Bahkan ketika kita menyadari bahwa masih banyak orang lain Yang lebih menarik, lebih pandai, lebih kaya daripada pasanganmu
Dan tetap memilih untuk mencintainya,
Itulah pilihan.

Perasaan cinta, simpatik, tertarik, Datang bagai kesempatan pada kita.
Tetapi cinta sejati yang abadi adalah pilihan.
Pilihan yang kita lakukan.

Berbicara tentang pasangan jiwa, Ada suatu kutipan dari film yang Mungkin sangat tepat : "Nasib membawa kita bersama, tetapi tetap bergantung pada kita bagaimana membuat semuanya berhasil"
Pasangan jiwa bisa benar-benar ada.
Dan bahkan sangat mungkin ada seseorang Yang diciptakan hanya untukmu.
Tetapi tetap berpulang padamu
Untuk melakukan pilihan apakah engkau ingin Melakukan sesuatu untuk mendapatkannya, atau tidak...

Kita mungkin kebetulan bertemu pasangan jiwa kita,
Tetapi mencintai dan tetap bersama pasangan jiwa kita,
Adalah pilihan yang harus kita lakukan.

Kita ada di dunia bukan untuk mencari seseorang yang sempurna untuk dicintai TETAPI untuk belajar mencintai orang yang tidak sempurna dengan cara yang sempurna

Not Now - Blink182 - Dragging The Lake 3

Come here, please hold my hand Lord now
Help me, I'm scared please show me how to fight this,
God has a master plan
And I guess I am in his demand

Please save me this time I cannot run
And I'll see you when this is done
And now I have come to realize
That you are the one who's left behind

Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me
I'm right here
Waiting

I see, a light it feels good
And I'll come back soon just like you would
It's useless, my name has made the list
And I wish, I gave you one last kiss

Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me
I'm right here
Waiting

and take My one last breath, and don't forget
That I will be right here
Waiting

it's 3 in the morning

jam 2.30 nyampe rumah
baru pulang dari gereja Laurensius
mereka ada acara ulang tahun gereja yang ke 24
gua disuruh dateng ma Dahono
sekalian sorenya misa disana

lumayan ketemu temen2 gereja Laurensius
dapet juga kenalan2 baru

lucu...
gua lebih kenal mudika Laurensius dibanding ma mudika Odilia gereja gua sendiri

berhubung ada acara itu gua jadi gak bisa dengerin radio
cuman pengen denger suara dia
lumayan buat obat kangen he3.....

jam 2 Joanne miskol
lagi bete dia
partnernya minta dia bertanggung jawab
aneh....
biasanya juga cewek yang minta pertanggung jawaban
padahal hamil aja kagak
weird dude !

Fake Plastic Trees - Radiohead

her green plastic wateringcan
for her fake chinese rubberplan
in the fake plastic earth
that she bought from a rubber man
in a town full of rubber plans
to get rid of it self
it wears her out

she lives with a broken man
a cracked polystyreneman
who just crumbles and burn
she used to do surgery for girls in the eighties
but gravity always wins
and it wears him out

she looks like the real thing
she tastes like the real thing
my fake plastic love

but i can't help the feeling
i could blow through the ceiling
if i just turn and run
and it wears me out

if i could be who you wanted all the time
all the time ....

Happy Birthday Giri !

Thanx juga dah ditraktir di Hanamasa ^_^
akhirnya bisa lebih dekat dengan Puji
She's Giri's girlfriend

1 Gig Baby !!!

memori komputer gua sekarang 1GB
beli memorinya Joezer yang 512 MB yang gak kompatibel di komputernya ^_^

dari Mario

Lirik oleh Pure Saturday. Dinyanyikan oleh Pure Saturday

Di atas tanah kita melangkah
Andai kita terbang jauh melayang
Kan kugapai semua tanpa pilihan lagi
Seindah lika-luku jalan
Yang terlalui, yang terlewati
Tak kan mudah menghindar
Kita melawan waktu, lewati hari
Biarlah ku tertidur
Di atas awan ku tertidur (hanya bersamamu ku kan tertidur)
Kan kugapai semua, saat ini kan kugapai semua

Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There (Thanx cousin Angie for the lyric)

Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.

You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.

Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.

Watch the riddles glow,
watch them float away.

Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you gotta save your tired soul,
you gotta save our lives.

Turn on the radio,
to find you on sattellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.

All we are is all so far.

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.

I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.

I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.

I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails awake.

I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.

All we are is all so far

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.

I know you're out there, oh.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity....
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling back to me.

Well I know,I know.
You're falling out of reach.
I know...

halow .. ^_^

gua makin sering ngisi blog nih...
well it's only mean one thing.... gua kesepian...

tadi ke IP ma fam...
mu liat Laras anaknya Mba Maya ikut lomba biola !
kewl !!!
sayangnya gak menang... T_T

ketemu Emen
high school mate !
arsitek unpar...
dah kerja di jakarta tapi gak betah
well.... gua bisa bilang apa..?
gua gak tau gimana rasanya bekerja...
tapi suatu hari nanti gua pasti punya job juga ! ^_^

ps : is there an effective way to rid off loneliness ?

Joezer's Words 'Bout Love

Sometimes I wonder...
Am I hurting her?
I guess Ido...

Sometimes I even think,
should I just walk away?
And hope she can forget about the pain?

AAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!
Hidup menyebalkan!

Emanuel ^_^

do you know what it feels like being alone ?
kontak siapa2 tapi gak bisa dihubungi ato sms gak dibales,
gak bisa nyalahin mereka dengan segala aktivitas mereka masing2
biasanya kalo ada apa2 gua ngontak dia...
maen ke rumahnya...
tapi sekarang dah gak bisa...
jadi sering keluar sendirian.. hiks2... T_T

daripada nyiksa dir di rumah sendirian tadi maen ke BSM (sendirian)
mu beli album Fall Out Boy - From Under Cork Tree
taunya liat juga album Emanuel...

lucu juga nih...
kemaren2 sempet liat tuh album tapi gua cuman ngetawain doang...
"nama band kok emanuel ?!"
taunya setelah denger mp3-nya dari Deni gua naksir
jadinya beli juga tuh album... Emanuel - Soundtrack To A Headrush

btw...
kalo kalian suka emo... beli deh Fall Out Boy yang baru...!

di jalan dengerin hardrock fm
taunya ada Noni Wibisono !
bukannya kerja di TransTV dia ?!
tau deh... yang jelas seneng denger suaranya lagi
dia salah satu penyiar fave gua ^_^

oya...
bonyok malem ini pulang...
akhirnya !
no more starvation !!!!

All Of This

All of This
(Blink182 feat The Cure's Robert Smith)

With all of this i know now
Everything inside of my head
It all just goes to show how
Nothing i know changes me at all

Again i wait for this to
Change instead
To tear the world in two
Another night with her
But i'm always wanting you

Use me Holly come on and use me
We know where we go
Use me Holly come on and use me
We go where we know

With all of this i feel now
Everything inside of my heart
Nothing i feel pulls at me at all
Again i wait for this to pull apart

To break my time in two
Another night with her
But i'm always wanting you

Use me Holly come on and use me
We know where we go
Use me Holly come on and use me
We go where we know

She's all i need
She's all i dream
She's all i'm always wanting
She's all i need
She's all i dream
She's all...

I'm always wanting you
Yeah i'm always wanting you

huahahahaha......

Well...
Gua ngga kenal aja rasanya ngga enak banget bacanya...
Entah kenapa muncul kesan cowonya tuh asshole yang pinter belagak kasian atau nyari simpati...

Regards,
Joezer

dasar manusia...!

kalo lagi susah aja selalu inget Tuhan
jadi sering doa
well..... that's what happen to me right now...^_^
tadi pergi lagi ke Karmel

pulang mampir Borma setiabudi beli casing cd
nyesel gak beli cd kosong
tadi bikin cd ausio tapi cd-nya kurang .... crap !

mana sempet mati lampu !
ilang deh 1 cd...
padahal burn-nya dah 96%...
sial bener....

bosen nih...

bonyok mana sih ?!
katanya cuman 2 minggu tapi ini dah minggu ketiga,
keasikan jalan2 ke jawa kali....

persediaan duit dah nipis nih !
mana kakak lupa ngambil duit kemaren... T_T

boring banget nih....
this is why i hate holiday !
gada kerjaan...
mulai kuliah di unpar tanggal 18
kerjaan paling revisi TA
kerjaan rumah gak tiap hari gua lakuin

mau keluar tapi temen2 pada gak bisa
masa keluar sendirian... ?!
malah nyiksa diri kali namanya !
lagian bensin dah menipis... duit belum turun dari atas ^_^

BUT.......................................
kemaren minggu baru ngopy2 mpg band2 punk ma emo di rumah Deni
lumayan buat ditonton
convert trus bikin mp3-nya ^_^
lumayan nambah koleksi mp3 gua
new songs biar gak boring2 banget lah....

peace !

dapet dari David :)

love me 2

I want to hold you all night as if you were mine,
But i have to just be your friend and pretend its all just fine

i want to scream out to the world how i feel for you,
but the sad thing is i dont think u feel this too.

I want to tell you and for you to tell me too....
but what i have to tell you isnt what u will tell me 2

This silence is killing me i cant take it much longer
because every time we speak my love gets a little stronger

I am going to explode with these feelings inside
please baby....
love me 2 so these feelings dont have to hide

" "

she's somebody's someone
she wanted it to end but he refused
i was there for her and there was something between us
but in the end she choose her boyfriend
her torturing boyfriend
and it's torturing me

busy weekend

jumat pagi ke PDAM ngurus tagihan ma komplain, beres !
trus ke unpar liat jadwal kuliah, ketemu Kristopher ama Adri juga ^_^
nge-pos-in surat dan cabut ke gereja karmel, say a little pray n_n

malemnya pergi ma seseorang
hoping to forget the one but no use....
malah ujung2nya gua curhat huahahahaha...............!

skrng jam 1.32 pagi
baru pulang maen ma dahono, berti, ma rini
capek....
seharian gak ada istirahatnya
pagi anter kakak ke katedral... mau ke puncak ma KKI
mana bonyok belum pulang dari jawa... T_T

nyapu ngepel rumah nyuci juga
telponin temen ngajak maen pada gak bisa
untuk ada juga yang bisa diajakin maen

ngantuk....

ps: i never thought that i will be missing someone this much, it's not even a week !

Whitney Houston - All At Once

All at once,
I finally took a moment and I'm realizing that
Your not coming back
And it finally hit me
All at once

All at once
I started counting teardrops and at least a million fell
My eyes began to swell
And all my dreams were shattered
All at once

Ever since I met you
You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
So I must face it all alone

Chorus:
All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And that's all that matters now
All at onceI'm drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once

All at once,
I looked around and found that you were with another love
In someone else's arms
And all my dreams were shattered
All at once

All at once
The smile that used to greet me brightened someone else's day
She took your smile away
And left me with just memories
All at once

Ever since I met you
You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
So I must face it all alone

Chorus:
All at onceI'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And that's all that matters now
All at onceI'm drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once

Written by Michael Masser and Jeffrey Osborne
Almo Music Corp (ASCAP)/
March 9 Music (ASCAP)/
Prince Street Music (ASCAP)

from her

"Love?"

When love has come
But soon is gone
It begs the question
Was it there

The love was lost
And never found
Lost without you
Lost without me
Lost into eternity

The love was just a figment
A figment of our minds
Something we could ponder
But never express

Was it love or just a feeling
Was it love or just healing

Healing from the hatred
The hatred of our hearts
Our past was deep and full of pain
We needed this to release the stain

For this I do not regret
The time with you that I had spent

the full version

apa jadinya dunia tanpa cinta
tapi mengapa membuatku sengsara

bisakah kukubur saja yang dalam
agar hatiku tentram

kucoba logika
hatiku tetap pada pendiriannya

seorang wanita
hatiku nyaman dibuatnya

semua dilema
kan kutanam di ladang cinta

berharap tumbuh menjadi suka
kan kumiliki bayangan indah dirinya

pusing...

apa jadinya dunia tanpa cinta
tapi mengapa cinta membuatku sengsara

bisakah kukubur saja yang dalam
agar hatiku tentram

(GKD.31.07.05)

...??

gak tau mau nulis apa,
sekarang jam 10 malem dan lagi dengerin radio dengerin dia siaran.
ngantuk buanget !
tapi belum bisa tidur ampe jam 12 ntar,
mu kirim sms pas tengah malem.

Sabtu, 30 Juli 2005, 22:33

hmm..????

she loves me.... she loves me not... she loves me.... she loves me not... ....

Lily

big knock on my heart
feels like im falling apart
that beautiful flower on my sight
and it's getting bright

tired and alone
just waiting by the phone
hope its you back there
just to see that you care

a bee on your heart
and i'm no smart
will i make it ?
should i fake it ?

will it warn ?
will it closer ?
it's not like a farm
where you can find another

cant stop this bleed
my heart is on her feet
will she try ?
will i cry ?

lie to me
at least wait and see
this heart is for free
just wanna be happy

dont you know that i need you
this heart wants to scream your name
do you feel the same way too ?
kill cupid his the one to blame

^_^

I'm so fuckin' in love !

^_^

i'm so in love ^_^

T_T

suka ama cewek tapi dia gak nyadar kalo gua (masih) suka ma dia,
dia sempet pacaran aja gua masih nungguin,
sekarang dia dah putus tapi dia gak nyadar,
apa belum aja kali ya ?!
suka cerita2 tentang kecengan masing2,
apa dia tau ya kalo kecengan yang suka gua ceritain ke dia tuh dia sendiri ?!

Blink 182 "over" says Barker

14 April 2005 4.27pm

It seems that rumours of the Blink 182 “indefinitehiatus” hiding a full break-up could well be true.

www.signonsandiego.com, San Diego’s Union-Tribunenewspaper’s website, is reporting that Blink 182drummer Travis Barker has formed a new project withBlink bandmate Mark Hoppus, called Plus 44.

“Blink, asfar as I’m concerned, is over,” Barker told thenewspaper.
“I have a project going on with MarkHoppus, It’s called Plus 44 and we’re recording andwriting as we speak.

I just kind of see that as thepast. It just ran its course and now it’s time forsomething new and fun.”


www.kerrang.com

She

Can't get in
But loyal like skin
All I do is sin
It's over before it's begin

Do You care ?
Do You aware ?
Inside there is flare
Burn me with nightmare

Will you be my wife ?
Will you use the knife ?
Or I'm just number five
Nothing in Your life

Just a smile
I am happy for a while
But i must walk for a mile
Just for a smile

this weekend

jumat mau ke kampus bikin proposal tugas akhir
tapi dapet berita duka
Eyang gua meninggal
ke jakarta deh
sabtu pagi di makamin
minggu sore pulang
untung hari pengumpulan proposal diundur jadi hari rebo